My book- the introduction

Introduction

Let me be the first to say- Welcome! This isn't your average story of a young girl going through heartache and confusion about her life. Oh no. This is so much more than that. It is the journey into the depths of a soul. The confusion, the fear, the desperation, and, ultimately, the love that is found along the way.

Now I must admit. Taking this journey into myself has opened doors long kept closed. There is more to people than first meets the eye. Layer after layer, dimension after dimension. Thought process are different in each person. The way the world looks to one, may not be the way it looks to another. And who are we to judge who is right on that one? I certainly wouldn't tell someone they were looking at life through rose colored glasses, if what they truely see is the good in life. And you can flip that coin. Telling someone that they world isn't as bad as they think is like telling them their entire view on life and living is a lie. Would you really go as far as to do that? Think about it.

When I first decided to write this book, I had just started learning who I am. Deep down inside, the real me. Not the one that I thought society would accept or the one that would make me seem mean to keep others out, but the true nature of myself. That person that I locked deep inside so that she wouldn't be hurt. The one that only came out when I found someone who I loved more than anything else in the world and in that love, she opened up those doors. She found the real me behind the facade I so hid so greatly behind. Without her, who knows where life would have taken me.

So sit back, relax, and welcome to my life.

In the works

So I have decided, for the heck of it, I am going to start writing a book about my life..or at least part of it. The part about being a girly girl...who is a lesbian. I have found that there seems to be a misconception as to what a "typical" lesbian should look like. And I love to write. Why not make it about me? I am not looking to have it sell millions of copies HAHA..But just to accomplish getting a book published would be a big thing.

Anyways. I will keep you all updated on it!

Oh we came up with kind of a title..... "With all these purses and shoes- There's no room for me!" The picture of me squeezing myself into a closet full of all these girly things :):) I thought it was great

Serene Sunrise

A field in the morning.
Scattered flowers stretching with the waking morning.
A gentle breeze helps the trees in their stretching.
The dew drops gleam with the first sight of light.
The grass soft and wet against my bare feet.
I can feel it here.
Peace, hope, love.
Each breath I take overtaking the nightime slumber.
Awakening my soul, my body.
The scent of new flowers fill my nose.
Tantalizing my senses, renewing life.
A state between dream and real life.
The life I had before.
Dark, bare. Empty. Lifeless
Transforms before my eyes.
The sun breaking the skyline.
Colors dancing across the sky
Painting the very life of it into me.
The breeze dusting away the fear and doubt I had before.
The dew refreshing my skin and nourishing deep inside of me.
Feeling a new beat, my feet start to move.
I dance to a new beat.
I can feel the new life and love entering deeper into my heart.
The sun is warm.
Taking the final chill held deep in my bones.
I am finally free from the night I held onto for so long.
In this serene sunrise.
I am whole.